Oops! I have not posted in a while. My NY’s resolution was to do something creative every day. Damn, I’m so lazy. I’m really encouraging that typecast of lazy plus size people. Yikes! My bad.
So, I made it to LA. And its fabulous. I want to live here for ever and work, work, work. But oh NO, I don’t have a work visa. This town is harder than I thought. But god damn it, I have something to offer and I will make it work. There is nothing I love more than making people laugh, cry and scream!
So I want to work hard and make it happen. But that is so hard to DO. Why is that? I guess its because I’ve been hurt in the past and it is continuing on now in my life…. again, my bad! In school I would work my ass off however, I’d get low grades. It was so frustrating. Later I found out I had a learning issue. Yeah for me! I’m special! Now days….. I don’t put in the effort because I have been programed that I won’t get anywhere with that hard work. Schooling does not raise us kids very well does it!!! It’s times like this I wish I was Jewish…. All my Jewish friends are go getters, rich, and make things happen.
But here is what I have to do- STOP being in a TRANCE. I have 4 weeks legally left in LA so I must get a manager or agent. Meet with a lawyer and get that sorted. Start auditioning, have sex, and loose 20 kilos.
This is my mission. I must choose to make it happen because this is my life…I only have one life. I don’t want to die not having lived. FUCK IT!!! I am NOW putting my chicken fillets into my bra and I’m off to make this happen.
